last day

haven't blogged the past few days because i was either shopping or sleeping. nonevents, since that's what i have been doing since i got here. tuesday was fun though, my father picked me up in four seasons and we went to his house in daly city. faye and francia brought me to the mall in serramonte and we got some kickass blingbling namebelts. after shopping, we stayed in the house and watched elektra together, me and my father's second family. i didn't feel like an outsider, they we're all warm and welcomey. my brother picked me up half past midnight.

that's about it, most days were spent for last minute shopping, making sure that all of the bilins are taken cared of. oh and kuya jr was kind enough to drive me to rache's place this morning and he treated us to breakfast at marie callender's.

haha. boo boo. we were talking in tagalog about the salad bar and how unattractive the arrangement was, like everything was thrown into a short stretch of broccoli grass. all snide comments within the earshot of the mexican waiter who was fixing the salad bar. much to our suprise he came to our table halfway through the meal and asked us how the food was, in tagalog! apparently he can speak and understand a bit (more like a lot) of tagalog because he also works in a magnolia factory and most of the employees there speak tagalog. he then went on talking about filipino food, pambobola, and of course, women. he was nice, really, and i appreciate the effort to make friends and practice his tagalog although he didn't know when to stop. hehehe. that would make you think twice now before opening your mouth and bashing stuff just because you think they won't understand. :p

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6 more hours before our plane leaves for home. i must say this is also home, with my mom and my brother around. and probably, this is where i'll be in half a year. but right now, i'm excited (and just plain exhausted) and i can't wait to get back to my sunny yellow room in antipolo.

i guess this will be the end of starfishoutofwater, since i will be reunited with my sea again very soon. thank you pinole (and you for reading), it's been fun.

i might visit soon, wicked's coming in august. hasta luego.

kapatid

had dinner at the cheesecake factory with my dad, my four half-sibs, an my kuya jr. grabe we had to wait for more than an hour just to get seated. my dad lent us his credit card and told us (me, faye, and francia) to go shopping while they're waiting. it was such fun, bonding with my other two sisters. we all wished bebe was there, then there will be four of us bustos girls shopping for shoes.

afterwards, we went bowling in the yerba buena gardens. it was the bustos girls vs the bustos boys. dad just watched and ate mint lifesavers. walking back to the parking lot, we all wished bebe and kuya louie was there. then dad's kids would've been complete, all eight of us.
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color me badd

alam mo ba yung boyband na yun? color me badd? bata pa ko nun eh. anyway, this isn't about that. i had my hair colored today. such fun.

skip

i skipped a day. actually, i wrote an entry for yesterday but then blogger went bonkers and i couldn't publish it. nothing monumental happened yesterday anyway (like most days). i just slept all day, watched head in the clouds and read wicked in between. the movie was pretty good, first movie i liked that has penelope in it. wicked was engrossing. i never liked fantasy novels but this one got me hooked.

early this morning while i was half asleep i concluded that i was the anti-thesis of a girly girl. thought i would blog it first thing when im fully awake but then i never got to writing it down because i had to take a bath and leave as soon as i got up.

this afternoon, i got my hair done. looks pretty, i think. bill says i look different. wait till i upload them pics. right now i'm too full and too lazy to do so. ha! i just realized, i actually contradicted my declaration this morning. girly girls like to get their hair done and i just did. argh.

but still. i was never a girly girl.

peeechor peechor!

sa whole foods..




perstaym ko lang makakain ng totoong raspberries. hehe.

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kanina sa old navy there was this man, sabi niya sa kuya ko:

m: is she your girl? i must say, you are a very lucky man. she's very pretty.

k: she's my sister.

m: oh really? (turning to me) well, invite me to your wedding okay? i want to tell your husband that he's a very lucky man.

c: thank you. :)


oi jope, narinig mo yon? o, dahil alam kong miss na miss mo na ako:




nga pala, nakikita mo ba ang nakasulat sa building na ito? me kailangan ka atang bilhin jan. hehe.

the debut

i watched the debut lastnight. for more info about it, just click this link because i'm too lazy to write what it's about. when the movie started rolling i couldn't stop laughing because Ben (the lead actor) looked so much like Elmer. i had to check out the guy's name to make sure it wasn't him. haha.

but what's funnier is how i got kilig in the supposedly nakakakilig moments. hay, you should have seen me. it's like when i watched that hilary duff movie with rache. the scenes weren't really romantic at all, as in! but i just couldn't help but feel excited and inggit while watching. it's just really nakakakilig to watch two people who obviously like each other try to make moves and let the other person know about their feelings. i like watching people make a fool out of themselves, fumbling, fidgeting, saying the wrong words. i miss being kilig, i miss fishing out for clues whether he's into me or not. i miss days made perfect just because i saw him walk by. :)

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the brotha man!

my kuya jr and i are so funny. when he got home lastnight at around 2am, he was holding a styro filled with chinese take out. for reasons i don't know, the styro flew out of his hands and a few nanoseconds later, it was on the floor. we stared at it for a couple of seconds more and then i said "malinis pa yan, kainin natin yung nasa taas!"

and so we did. hahahahaha.

we were laughing and eating and putting fried rice and meat that we scraped from the top part of the fallen take out. we kept laughing and eating and saying "ano ba to para tayong pulubi!" and then laugh again. hay, such fun.

after that, naawa na kuya ko sakin so we drove to jack in the box to get some food. sourdough jacks rule!

wicked

my brother couldn't give me this



so he got me this instead



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i appreciate the gesture, thank you very much. :)

btw, they're taking wicked to SF in august and it will run till september. i might get to catch it after all. *wink*
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here are the pickies i promised. :p

again and again and again

there goes my dream of flying alone. this morning they called PAL up and asked if i got in the same flight as theirs and voila! i'm not on the PR 115 flight nemore. PR 105, welcome me!

i should have known. things are never steady here.

in other news...

...we went to San Francisco yesterday to do the stuff that tourists do. we drove for three quarters of an hour to get to the palace of fine arts. it was damn freezing. but the lake was beautiful and there were swans and turtles and (regular and weird-looking) birds all over. the cherry blossoms were enchanting.

kuya jr and i kept guessing why the women on top of the pillars had their backs turned and were nakayuko on the boxlike thing. sabi ko kasi naglalaba sila. sabi niya, wala kasi silang bra at nahihiya biglang me dumating na turista kaya naghahanap ng bra doon sa box. heheh. you be the judge:



after that we went to the golden gate bridge but then by time we got there it started raining. kaya ayun, takbuhan kami to the giftshop. i managed to take pictures of me with the arches of the gate in the background using my phone, thinking i could upload it but then drat! i forgot the data suite encoder in the philippines.

went to this uber nice and classy restaurant, cliffhouse, for dinner but then we'd have to wait for an hour just to get seated so we went to this thai place instead. sarap ng pagkain! i ate my heart out because i love pad thai and peanut butter sauce. i shouldn't have because by the time we got home i had to go number two a couple of times and take diatabs. it screwed up my tummy.

i'll post pictures soon, once i get them from my kuya louie. yeah, i have a bad ass picture under this beautiful old thing. you would want to see that, won't you?

unsent: i miss you

I see your picture,
I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.


ten days today. longest so far, huh? i hope things are great in Miarayon, i bet you're nostalgic and in high spirits. i remember you saying (in that Guidon article that featured you) that you find God in Miarayon. i wish i was there with you than here freezing my fingers, writing you a letter that you won't get to read anyway.

when i told them that i wanted to go home earlier, they all said that it's probably because i miss you. i wanted to protest, i wanted to tell them that i wanted to go home not just because i miss you. i wanted to tell them that i am unhappy in this house, that most things turned out to be disappointing, that i'm tired of putting up a happy front. that the reason why i stay up till five in the morning isn't really jetlag, but because i feel most comfortable when i'm alone.

while you're there finding God in Miarayon, i'm here finding out that family does not always mean ohana. lilo said that ohana means nobody gets left behind. but the truth of the matter is that we all move on, and being family does not guarantee that you won't get left behind. i'm realizing, in a very ironic way, that all we really have is ourselves.

but then i have you. and i know that when you say something, you will keep your word. you really are a gift, you know? because just when i was losing faith in people, i remember you. just when i was about to put my guards up, i remember you. recent disappointments pushed me to think twice about trusting other people's words, but then you (and aisa, while chatting in YM) remind me of the beauty of trusting, of taking risks.

you are my favorite risk. and i can say for certain that you are the most beautiful thing in my life. do not ever go.

home

it's official. i'll be taking the 8pm flight out of San Francisco on the 15th. :) yay.

my kuya louie brought my titas and tito to Reno today. i hope they had fun. kuya JR had an accident while playing basketball. his back hurts bad and his neck is stiff. mom and i went downtown and did some shopping. it was damn windy, my nose was freezing. too bad i only brought a light jacket and wore flipflops. my nose is still cold and my brain is thawing by the way.

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the pope died today. made the stupid assumption that he died lastnight because i was listening to the news half-asleep. i'm sorry.

i was in Hong Kong when Princess Diana died. Here in Pinole when Rico Yan died. Now that i'm back here, the Pope John Paul II died. hmmn. wala lang.

happy

it's april fool's. incidentally, it's our 9th month together. we don't usually count, and this is one of the few times i remembered. for what it's worth, happy 9th labidabs.