shopping day

pangit gising ko kaninang umaga. mainly because i didn't want to get up just yet. as usual mga alas-kuatro na ako natulog at mashado pang maaga ang 10am para gumising.

pumunta kami sa downtown, shempre pa sa walang kamatayang old navy. pagkatapos namin don, naisip ko na kung ano talaga ang gusto kong trabaho. personal shopper! e pano ba naman, halos lahat yata ng bilhin ng mga tita ko eh ako ang pinapapili. kung di naman, ako ang maghahanap. masarap din mamili, lalo na kung di ikaw ang magbabayad.

dapat punta kaming waterworld bukas nila dad. pero di na lang kami sama ni kuya kasi me sakit si mom (yung gums niya dahil sa pustiso, hehe), kaya ipagda-drive namin siya bukas. pero oks lang kasi sarado rin naman pala yung waterworld kaya ganun din.

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i've decided to come home with them on the 15th. in a fit of depression kanina, i was crying over not being able to see NY and Wicked. see, i've been really looking forward to it since last year. i've told people i was gonna see it. hell, i didn't feel disappointed na di ako tuloy sa euro tour kasi wicked naman kapalit. pero wala rin. my brother suggested that we just go to Vegas instead, ate love suggested we watch cirque de soleil or maybe even we will rock you. and i appreciate the gesture, i really do. but Vegas won't really make up for NY. however fantabulous it may be.

i'm not mad or inis or nagtatampo sa kuya ko, kahit na ang tagal tagal ko nang sinabi yun sa kanya. tagal tagal ko na ring sinabing bili na siya ng ticket or at least pareserve na. i totally understand their situation (my sister-in-law is 6 months on the way) at wala akong reklamo don. sana lang sinabi na sakin from the start na baka by the time i get here, di siya na okay mag-travel and all that. then maybe i could have fixed things by myself, i could have gotten tickets myself, i could've booked a flight myself. i could've found someone, anyone, who would go with me. sana he told me earlier para sana hindi na ako umasa. i could have at least tried to look for other stuff to look forward to.

hindi ako nagtatampo, hindi lalo ako galit. i guess what i'm saying is that although i understand, i can't help but feel disappointed. aside from my family, that is what i came here for. that's what i wanted out of this summer. my first broadway show. but i guess i would have to wait. sad lang cos by the time i get to go to new york, wala ng wicked.

so there, uwi na lang ako ng maaga. beach na lang. bili na lang siguro ako ng digicam. kahit ano. pagdasal niyo na sana kasya pa ako sa flight pauwi ng pinas sa 15.